3 min readOct 18, 2023

Why does everything seem SO complicated????

If you’re reading this, you might be feeling overwhelmed and defeated just like I am right now. You might be struggling with betrayal trauma too and finding it challenging to get the help you need. That is where I am at today… ugh.

This post is more of a ramble and rant than anything else so if you don’t like these sorts of posts please keep scrolling by…

My day is not going too well. I am feeling sad, tired, and defeated. I want so badly to talk to a betrayal trauma counselor, but the one in my TINY town has a year-long waitlist.

I am so upset about this and it made me cry because EVERYTHING has made me upset lately since I started my betrayal trauma journey at the beginning of this year.

I need a break. I need some good things to come from this terrible, horrible ordeal. I need to talk to someone who will give me advice and listen to me without judging me. I have SO much to say and so much to talk about, but I fear I will be judged.

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I am just so tired of it all. It sucks feeling like I have to be afraid because I might be judged. I never asked for this crap to happen to me! WHY is it ME who feels like this????




Someone who is trying to get through life in one piece and be the best version of myself. I also want to try and help others who are hurting or sad.